There’s something I’ve been keeping from you for the last month. Maybe because of fear of failure, I don’t know. Or maybe because I just didn’t want to admit it. But the truth is, for almost five weeks now, I’ve been…excercising. And eating better. And not hardly drinking any Mountain Dew (or pop at all). (I still have a couple a week but I don’t keep it in the house. If I want pop, I have to go out and buy it.)
It’s fairly depressing because I hate exercise and I love sugar. But it all started with me trying to mend my gallbladder problems and drop a few pounds before I head to Mom 2.0. I had a few extra ell-bee’s on me from general laziness and overindulgence in Cadbury Creme Eggs…mmm.
And, it’s working. I’ve been back on the Pilates train for five weeks and I’ve only not worked out five days in five weeks. All my lovely Lands’ End clothes for Mom 2.0 fit great. I will NOT be needing shapewear for once. And…I like it. I find myself wanting to work out. Who AM I?
The problem is, I want to work out, but I still want to eat Cadbury Creme Eggs (I may have a few I purchased on clearance after Easter hoarded in a special hiding place. Maybe.) and drink Mountain Dew! I HAVE been eating healthier, but I don’t WANT TO. I am never going to just pine for a salad, people.
Five weeks is a long time for me. This is a big streak! There is a small voice inside me that wonders how long I can keep it up. I want to keep it up because I love the way I feel. But I also miss being me, normal me, carefree me, who would say in the wise words of Erin Brockovich, “As long as I have one @$$ instead of two” I’ll eat whatever I want.
Sigh. I guess we’ll see how I do after Miami! Those extra calories I’ve been burning while breastfeeding have definitely been helping me in my endeavors to slim down. But if Jonah quits nursing while I’m away (which I kind of want him to, because really, I am his drinking fountain at this point), I won’t have THAT in my back pocket anymore…which means even more exercising and even less sugary soda! *Sigh*.
I SERIOUSLY wanna have my cake and eat it too!! Waah.
You can do it.
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I love this post. Jenny when I first started running about a year ago I swear I couldn’t finish a two mile run. I did 20 miles the other week.I made it my routine and suddenly it became something that was just a part of who I am. Personally I don’t think there is anything wrong with a little moderation. Yesterday I went out of an 8 mile run. Shortly after I took my 5 year old to a pizza making birthday party. Yes I had a slice and a cupcake. Life is about balance.
Maybe you could use your Cadbury eggs to reward yourself when you meet a goal!
That’s great that you’re exercising and eating better! Your gallbladder is probably thanking you for it.
Now, if I could be as nice to my gallbladder…
Shannon
Dear Jenny, I could have written this post. I also hate exercise and love sugar (I have like 27 sugar addiction books and pants in about every size, 2 to 12, in my closet to prove it). It’s a stronghold, friend, and you have gotten through the hard part! Just keep doing what you’re doing and those cravings will go away. Promise.
YAY! Proud of you my friend…
I have been in an on-again, off-again relationship with Mt. Dew since high school. Currently, I am on one a day. I try to quit, but something always brings me back. Doesn’t help that I put it on FB, and people *ahem*Jenny*ahem* keep telling me I am crazy for giving it up! 🙂
Thankfully, i do get to temper my Mt. Dew addiction with the fact that I already run 3-4 times a week, and do half-marathons 3x a year. Always can do better, but that’s the great thing about fitness–always room to improve, but even if you only do a little, it is good for you! Keep it up, woman.
Great job!! You are so disciplined!!!
I am working on this too. I love all bad food from chocolate to chips! And I’m learning it is all about moderation. The more I restrict myself, the more I want CRAP! So for now I’m getting on the elliptical every other day and learning to eat better (for the most part).
Know your struggle. You’re doing great 🙂 if you get a chance read Made to Crave….awesome book. Helps me when I struggle…
Great job! I myself am trying to get my head in the game on this health and exercise thing.
Right now I’m reading Reshaping It All, by Candance Cameron Bure and it’s pretty good. I am a child of the 80’s and huge Full House fan so it’s extra good! 🙂