I’m as happy as I can be to see the calendar turn to March. January was emotionally rough and before I had full recovered it was February. And February was busy, insanely busy and full of anxiousness for me. It started out by frantically preparing for BlissDom, and then the amazing-crazy-fun-ecstasy that was BlissDom, and THEN the major post-BlissDom letdown when my house was a wreck and I couldn’t seem to get my groove back.
Then followed two weeks of ridiculous kindergarten-registration-preparation-anxiety and finally, preparations for Joshua’s 5th birthday party.
Somewhere in between kindergarten anxiety and birthday party prep, I just started to feel really…inadequate.
Inadequate as a mother, a wife, a blogger, and a person in general. I am an organizational nightmare, and I feel like life would be so much easier if I could get a good schedule going.
I am hoping March brings me the opportunities I need to recharge, refresh, re-organize (I feel that if I didn’t suck so badly at time management my life would run a lot more smoothly) and re-energize.
I also really hope it gets warmer. ‘Cause 25 degrees on the first day of March? SUCKS. And a little sunshine? Would probably do wonders to improve my mood!
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You and me both!
I hear that!
I seriously need to work on time management too. I’m not really into schedules though, so I tend to lose my focus throughout the day. But I’m going to try really hard…otherwise I’m afraid everything will fall apart when the baby comes!!!
I don’t even have kids yet and I feel the same way. This winter has been really hard for me (being pregnant has been rough). I’m hoping that warm weather will bring me the pickup I need to get myself back in order too. Just remember when you feel overwhelmed that you aren’t alone and certainly aren’t the only one who feels that way.
Many times as a mom I have felt the same inadequacy that you are feeling, and I have come to the conclusion that I am totaly inadequate and always will be, on my own. God has shown me and is still showing me that apart from Him I can do nothing. It is His grace that sustains me in any situation. In 2 Cor. 12: 8-10 Paul asks for a weakness to be removed, and God’s response was, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Then Paul goes on to say he will boast in his weakness so that the power of Christ may dwell in him. I would encourage you to use this time to trust the Lord to accomplish in you what He wants for you and seek Him to see what He would have you do today, not what you have for yourself. He is faithful! I Love You!
I have felt the same way many times. But, I have learned something recently. I am inadequate to do all that I am supposed to do, apart from God’s grace. I can do nothing with out His strength and help. In 2 Cor. 12:8-10, Paul prays for a weakness to br removed and God’s response was, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Paul goes on to say that he is going to boast about his weaknesses so that the power of Christ may dwell in him. I would encourage you to trust God to work in you what He desires for you, and to seek what He would have you to accomplish today, not what you feel needs to be done. He is faithful, and He alone makes us adequate for the calling of being a wife, mother, etc. I love you!
And here all this time I thought it was just me…man 2009 has been killer thus far, in as many good ways as bad…but man, it cannot continue at this pace…I need my mojo back bad!
remember march comes in like a lion, but out like a lamb 🙂
hope all is well soon for you!
Girl, we should just celebrate our inadquacies together! Preferably over a hot fudge sundae with extra whip cream, hot fudge and nuts…LOTS and LOTS of NUTS!!!!
I’m so inadequate I can’t even spell inadequacies (from previous comment)…that should make you feel really good 🙂
Good luck with all of the above!
Amen on needing sunshine. It’s crummy out over here, too.
Jen,
The winter after Alan was born I felt so blah, but I chalked it up to post-partum. Then the next winter I felt bad again – couldn’t get anything done, didn’t really want to get anything done, etc. That time I chalked it up to moving away from Legacy recently and missing my friends. Then the next winter I felt awful again. I mentioned it to someone at church, and she said,”Sarah, you need more light!” Andy went out and bought 3 more (bright) lamps to go in the rooms I spent the most time in. Also, as soon as I get up in the morning I have to go around and open all my blinds. (For some reason, when my house is a mess I tend to leave them closed, thinking then no one will ever know, but that became a counter-productive cycle.) Then each day I try to sit somewhere by a window and read to the kids a few minutes while soaking in the ‘sun’. The third adjustment I made that winter was to stop making “to-do lists.” Instead, I make “got-done” lists in the winter. I set a goal (say, 5-8 things) in the morning, then start writing down what I DO accomplish each day. Somehow, this was more encouraging than a list of 25 things of which I only accomplished 5. Anyway, this hasn’t completely made the winter doldrums disappear, and my house still isn’t perfect (as you know), but it really has made a noticeable difference in my outlook on most wintery days. We love you!
I’m sorry you’ve been having such a rough time – I hope March is much better! And for what it’s worth, I’m so glad I found your blog and met you!
I love ya lady…I’m catching up on my blog reading or I would have been here sooner to say it.
I can’t help but think this Twitter business is at the root of all our woes.