Friends, I am struggling.
With all the uncertainty surrounding Kate right now, I am having a very hard time staying focused on the positive and staying in the moment. I am trying to remind myself that today, she is happy and healthy and swimming and doing everything she wants to do – and that today is all we know for sure anyway.
I am trying to keep myself from worrying, but I am failing miserably.
I know it’s impossible to completely quell the worries and the what-ifs, but there must be ways to control them. I just don’t know what they are.
Which is where you come in.
Tell me – do you have tips? Any daily rituals for being thankful for what is happening right now? Ways you remind yourself to count your blessings?
Is there an app for that?
prayer. It’s the only thing that gets me through most days.
Thanks Adelina. I know you are going through a lot of stress too! Best wishes to you and your daughter.
I agree with Adelina, but I find specific things to pray/meditate on. A favorite verse, or I listen to the same praise song/hymn over and over. I have been known to write verses on my hand or arm when I am having a really hard time. It gives me something positive to focus on. You know I have had some unknowns and hard things with kids before, and you are on a good track with thinking and thanking for and about the things that are positive about Kate’s life and health right now – the things that are known to you. So go with that, and find some other encouraging words/verses/songs that you can have available to you and grab on at any moment. And don’t hesitate to express your feelings like you did here. That is ALWAYS a help.
Remember the saying, “one day at a time”? Well, I think some situations require one minute at a time! It’s hard not to think about the issue at hand…she’s your daughter! It’s also okay to completely fall apart when you need to! Crying is very cleansing.
(And also I love the selfie! Nice work, Kater.)
Concentrate on the best possible outcome….plan on it being the least difficult of any of the possible diagnoses. Hard for a mom to do but that is how I handle medical uncertainties. Pray for strength.
Focus on the fact tha there are many, many of us out there who love you and yours and are petitioning Heaven daily for the most positive result.