Seven.

Seven years ago today I became a mother.  And here it is, 10:20 p.m. The party is long over, and I’m half-past exhausted, but I had to take a minute just to say how thankful I am for that baby boy.  Who now does not at ALL resemble a baby!  My big guy.

I had a difficult experience when Joshua was born.  In fact, I don’t even really like to talk about it.  Bobby and I agree that it was at the time, the best day and the worst day of our lives all at the same time.  But God is good, and each year I lose more of the bad memories and feel more of the joy of that day.  Of the first time I knew what it meant to risk, and to love without expecting anything in return.  And the truth is, I’d do it 100 times over if I had to, because I got a healthy, amazing, sweet, smart little boy out of the deal.

To my Joshua, I love you baby boy.  You are everything I could have hoped for in a son.  And I will always love you with my whole heart, no matter what.  I couldn’t possibly be prouder of you, my sweetheart.  I love being your mommy.

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The World According to Joshua

Yesterday Joshua’s first grade teacher sent home a wonderful gift in his backpack: his first semester journal.  She has been giving the students topics to write about and it was SO fun for Bobby and me to go through and read what our little guy has written.  I’ve never gotten to get inside of his mind like this and it was a real treat.  It was also pretty stinkin’ hilarious!  Bobby and I laughed until we cried over some of his entries.  Here are a few of my favorites.  I am leaving the spelling as he wrote it but I will translate in parentheses if necessary.

On the subject of Jesus

“Jesus is big and awesome.”

On the subject of pumpkins

“Pumpkins are fun Because they are orange and orange is my favrit color and Pumpkins are my favrit frut I like to make skary faces out of them.”

On a “real snowy day”

When I was walking in the street it was realy snowy my shos got all snowy I ditint lik it at all.”

On Thanksgiving

On the first Thanksgiving the pilgrims wanted to go to a new world.  They called it the New World.”

On Angels

“Angels can fly they sreve God they are Good but one Angel was trund into Satton.”

On preparing for the 1st grade Speech Meet

“A Good Speech!  On a speech you have to stand still and speck clear!  Don’t put your paper on your face.  Do the speech right!”

On Christmas vacation

“My Vacation”

“On vacation I had a Good Christmas And for Christmas I got a nitendo Dsi and on Vacation my Grandma stayed at my House for some days to take care of the baby and on vacation it was one of my coisins birthday!”

On Christmas

“Jesus was born in the stable and Mary was the mom of Jesus and Joseph was the Dad of Jesus and Jesus grew up and christmas is Jesus’es birthday and one of the best gifts for Christmas is the bible so you can lern abouwet Jesus.”

On Veterans Day

“Veterans are nice they save are contrey and they fly in planes.”

…and my PERSONAL FAVORITE, which just goes to show how enlightened my little boy is…

On Martin Luther King, Jr.

“Martin Luther King Jr. was nice the withe people didint treat the black people nice Martin luther King Jr. thot it was totaly not fair.”

Drawing for the MLK journal entry. Mean white guy on the left!

And that’s the world according to my little boy!

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Happy nEw yeaR

Emily loves random capitalization, so that title is just for her.  And because I think I am ever-so-clever.  But I’ve already digressed before this post has even started!  I rang in the New Year this weekend by going to bed at like 9:30 on New Year’s Eve and praying my baby would sleep well (he’s been extreeeeemely unpredictable in that department) so that I could get some rest.  And he did do pretty well.  In fact, it was his best night ever.  Which would have been really awesome…if Joshua had not woken up at 1 a.m. with a 102 fever, abdominal pain in his right side, and nausea and vomiting.

Unfortunately for us all, Joshua has inherited my tendency to panic and freak out about…everything.  He had discovered that same night that he had a very loose bottom front tooth, his first one, and he was CONVINCED that he had swallowed his tooth and that’s what was causing the stomach pain.  (The tooth remains quite loose but intact.)

I, on the other hand, was convinced that he had appendicitis. Because I am an expert, see, ’cause I had mine out when I was 18 AND I had severe pain in my right side, fever, and vomiting with it. SO – I made Bobby take the kid to the ER.  Adding to my worry was that the night before I’d noticed that Joshua had some swollen bumps on one side of his neck.  But he had no fever, sore throat or any other complaints so I let it go.  Now however, it had me even more concerned.

Bobby got Joshua ready, packed a few things, and they went to our local Children’s hospital ER.  They were gone for three hours, almost all of which Jonah slept through – his longest stretch to date.  But I couldn’t sleep. I was too nervous and worried.  Bobby and I texted back and forth and then about 3:30 he texted that it was NOT appendicitis and that they were going to draw blood and do an x-ray to make sure the swollen bumps on his neck – his lymph nodes – were ok.  So that’s when I REALLY started freaking – I would much rather have my kid have appendicitis than something be majorly wrong.

Then I didn’t hear from Bobby for over an hour, and I was fully panicked. Just praying the same words over and over again, basically.  “Let my big boy be ok.”  When Bobby walked into our bedroom at 4:45 and told me Joshua was fine, it was just a nasty virus, I burst into tears of joy and exhaustion. (They send him home with an Rx for Zofran {my old friend!} and 24 hours later he was much better). Bobby and I tried to lay down and get some sleep.

And THEN the baby woke up.

But I was so happy and thankful, I didn’t even care.

How did you spend your New Year?  I hope it was happy and slightly less eventful than ours!

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