Category: Emily is neurotic

Take a look at this.

Pretty much sums it up, don’t you think?

While I thought that entire video was food for thought, the part that stuck out to me most was the idea of eliminating negative energy.

Ironically, in the middle of writing that sentence, my computer decided to shut down, which resulted in a WHOLE BUNCH of negative energy spewing from my pores.

See? I’m not very good at this. I’m not exactly known for my optimism. I remember an elementary school teacher pointing out my pessimistic nature – a self-esteem booster, for sure!

Eliminating – or even reducing – negative energy. Is that possible? Are we each in charge of deciding whether or not we surround ourselves with positive energy?

That is an awful lot of responsibility. And effort.

But imagine the difference it could make.

So what do you think? Is the energy around us something we can control? And if so, how do we do it?

A few months ago when I discovered Pinterest, I pinned a number of ideas for things to do over the summer. For example:

(Note to self: Buy a huge chalk board. And develop nice handwriting.)

And this:

That one is similar to what I attempted to create last year during the Advent season.

Anyway, I pinned those and a variety of other crafts and activities and thought they were fab ideas… and then we got busy with work and swim team and life and I didn’t do anything with them.

I remembered them today, and then promptly had an anxiety attack (I wish I was kidding) about whether or not Andy and I are exposing our kids to enough experiences and activities. This led to me to creating an excel spreadsheet in my head about what we had done this summer and what other things we should do – and what categories each of those would fall under (nature, travel, physical activity, etc.). What?!? You know I am a dork.

Anyway, I’m about to make my list and I need to know what to put on there.

So, what have you and your kids done this summer? What else do you have planned? What things do you wish you were going to do?

Ever have one of those nights when you are really tired and really need to sleep because you’ve got a really busy week ahead of you… but you just can’t sleep?

Yeah, I am having one of those moments right now.

It’s 4:21 a.m. and I’ve been up for about an hour and a half. My alarm is going to go off an hour and a half from now, and I have an extremely busy day at work tomorrow (today, I suppose) which will be capped off by a swim meet in the evening.

I really need to get some sleep. So why am I up?

I’ve been laying in bed worrying about everything under the sun. Some things are real, relevant concerns, some things are illogical and unlikely and not worth losing sleep over.

Most of all, I’m so worried about not getting any sleep that I can’t sleep.

I think I might finally be cracking up.

So, I guess I’ll head off to bed once again and add “probably cracking up” to my list of things to worry about.