It’s Almost Over.

I think Sammy is weaning himself.

He’s nearly 15 months old, and I know I should be prepared for this and ready for it to happen, but quite honestly I’m not. It makes me sad to think that he’s getting so big and that he’s not an infant anymore. I logically know this is true, but still, he is my baby.

We’ve been down to just nursing at night and sometimes in the mornings (when I’m trying to get a few more minutes of shut-eye), but lately Sammy hasn’t been nursing in very long stints – something much more exciting is always going on around him, and he’s soon ready to crawl off to find a ball or play with his sister. And the number one sign he’s just not that into it anymore – he doesn’t point and squeal at my laptop the way he used to when he wanted to nurse. (What? He thinks my laptop is somehow related to the nursing process, since it’s omnipresent when we sit down on the couch. Is that not normal??)

Tonight he was super tired and ready for bed, but I wanted to nurse him to sleep. I don’t normally do that, but tonight I wanted to pay attention, to make sure I remembered this night if in fact it turned out to be the last time he nursed. So we sat in the rocking chair in his room as we’ve done so many times before, and I just stared at him, trying to burn his soft little baby face into my memory. I want to remember everything about him.

He is my baby.

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The $1 Million Question

Wayyyy back in the day when Jenny and Bobby got married, I gave them a card that said something along the lines of “Congratulations! You’re never going to have to hear ‘When are you going to get married?’ again!” on the outside, and on the inside it said “So when are you going to have a baby?”

And then after the first… “Ready for another one??”

Then after the second (and I presume subsequent children as well), the common refrain is “So are you done now?”

Which, my friends, is where Andy and I are right now.

Before Sammy was born, I would have (and did) answered that question with an emphatic “Hell yeah!” I mean, I practically had him scheduled for the ol’ snip snip.

Now, though, it’s more of a {face contorted} “Yes. I think so. Probably. Maybe. I don’t know.”

And that’s just it – I don’t know.

It doesn’t make sense for us to have more kids. We don’t have another bedroom, and Sammy’s is already super small. We don’t have room for another car seat. And I can’t even begin to think about the financial implications of another baby.

But… I see things like Megan’s ultrasound or hear a tiny baby cry and my uterus skips a beat.

I also realize, though, that those things probably happen regardless. I mean, what are you supposed to do – keep having children until the sights/sounds of pregnancy and babies are repulsive? That doesn’t sound like such a good plan.

So tell me, readers, how did you know that you were done? Or how did you know that you’re not?

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It’s Like the Xanax of Cupcakes

This weekend the kids and Bobby and I (along with Emily & her kids and lots of other cool bloggy peeps) had the privilege of attending a birthday party for Amy’s daughter, P. The party was held at Pump It Up, one of those “bouncy places” as Joshua calls them, and let me just say a GREAT time was had by all! After an hour or so of bouncing, we went into a room where the (very awesome) Pump It Up staff served the children chips, juice boxes, and cupcakes. Glorious, glorious cupcakes. Cupcakes that not only looked and tasted delicious, but also seemed to have a mysterious tranquilizing quality. After just one bite, all the crazy kiddos seemed to instantly calm down. Witness:

Shannan’s three-year-old, Brady:

Bradybits lookin' cute!

Erin’s
little guy:

And finally, my little Sophie, who was completely transformed into a Zen-like state:

someone drugged the cupcakes

Maybe it was the hour of furiously bouncing, climbing, and sliding that that made the kids so docile, but after a taste of that icing, I’m thinking someone slipped a little somethin’-somethin’ into the cupcakes.

And yo, I could really use that recipe!

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