A while back, I said I wanted to freeze time because Sammy was getting too big too fast… now I want to freeze it again, but this time for a different reason.
My maternity leave is almost over. Ok so I still have a month left (I go back July 7th), but still.. it is staring me in the face. And I don’t like it. I want more time to sit and stare at my baby as he’s sleeping, more time to watch him smile.
I know I’ve been really lucky this time around… three months of fully-paid leave is way better than what the majority of women get in this country. I only had four weeks off with Kate, and yet I am dreading going back this time much more than I was then.
I need to just enjoy this remaining time instead of focusing on the countdown to d-day, work on enjoying today instead of worrying about tomorrow. Which really, should be the goal all the time, right?
I think it’s harder going back to work the second time. After all, you’ve already learned how fast they grow and change from the first one.
Enjoy each and every moment. 🙂
I work a swing shift and I get a “long weekend” once a month (I am off from Friday afternoon until Wednesday night) so I go through that every month…dreading 10pm Wed. So it is exactly like the maternity thing but without the weight gain,midnight feedings, screaming babies,grumpy spouse,all the laundry,cooking and cleaning…..maybe going back to work won’t be so bad eh? I guess I am saying I have no idea what you are feeming when it comes down to it. Good luck.We will pray for ya!
I agree with Karen… I would think the 2nd time around is hardest. Thanks for this post… sometimes we need that extra reminder in life to stop and truly take in the moments. They go by way too fast!
– Audrey
Three months seems like a long time until you’re home with a newborn – and then it’s not nearly long enough. I hope you have lots of time to enjoy and savor this last month. 🙂